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| At the Whitney Museum of American Art Outfit: Leather Jacket: Thrifted, Dress: Forever 21, Shoes: Kohls |
Before I blog more about my trip and post more pictures of places I saw and ate at, I first just wanted to reflect on my past month of living in New York City.
I haven't really explained why I decided to go on this trip. Yes, I was able to go for school and to fulfill my sociology requirements, but this was not entirely my reasons for going. It's funny because I registered to do this program the day that it was due. So it was partially spontaneous even though I had known about the program for some time, but it was more than that.
At the time, I knew I needed to get away from everything. I needed to get away from Los Angeles, I needed to get away from people, I just needed to get away from the things that were bringing me down. I was in a place of being overwhelmed and anxious about everything. I needed a new adventure, and in this new adventure I needed to find myself again. I feel like that's a cliche thing to say, but I feel like a lot of me was getting lost in trying to please everyone around me and I forgot about myself. So with this trip, I really just wanted to do something for me. As selfish as it sounds, I think I deserved to do something on my own. I deserved to adventure off and explore.
A month later, I am so glad and thankful that I took this opportunity. All the money that was spent on this trip, it was all worth it. One day I'll pay back my parents for letting me go on this trip, I promise that. But the experiences and memories that I have now are priceless. I made lifelong friends, learned a lot about art and culture, ate fatty foods, seen some amazing places, and so so much more.
So, did I find myself? No, but I learned more about myself and that is all I can ask. Maybe "trying to find myself" is being too greedy. Being around everyone in this city, I could feel their hard work and passion in everything they do. I could feel it in the Broadway performers, in the boutique owners, and even the street performers. So maybe I shouldn't expect to find myself just like that. But instead, I should continue to enjoy life, have new experiences, and just - as one of my new friends quoted, "work towards being the best version of myself."
