the last first day

Summer is over and I feel like I didn't even get to savor it towards the end. Which is also why I haven't been blogging much. I was just so busy with work, Samahang work, and just trying to pick up my life together. However, I really want to start putting more effort into blogging more. I know I remind myself this a lot, but I hope I really do because it keeps me sane and gives me some satisfying outlet.

Anyways, today's the last first day of college at UCLA! It will probably hit me more later but it's still pretty crazy. I can remember the first day I moved into the dorms and I was crying almost instantly after my parents dropped me off. Being 5 hours away from home and not knowing anyone except for a handful of people was scary.

Here I am now, on my fourth year about to finish off college. It's so bittersweet. I know I always say I just want to graduate already and go on into the real world. But again, am I ready for that? That means looking for a full time job, being responsible for myself and my life. What do I even want to do for the rest of my life? It's scary and gives me anxiety just thinking about it. Sigh.

I can't deny though that college, all the experiences and people I have met helped me into the person that I am today. Although, I still have a long way to go. I feel like I will always be working towards the best version of myself. Until then, cheers to my last year at UCLA and I'm ready to tackle on everything that is thrown at me.