the rejection

Thank you, but no thank you.
It always starts with some sort of affirmation and ends with a "try better again next time" or "you weren't what we were looking for" or "it's not you, it's me."

I'm at a place in my life where it's getting really hard to see where I belong or where I'll be happy. I've always been optimistic and I'm able to see the lessons learned or how I can improve- but as of now, maybe not so much.

I'm starting to inch backwards into my hole of insecurities and self-doubt.
I'm not good enough. I'll never be good enough.
I'll always be mediocre, and being mediocre will hardly get you anywhere.

It's becoming discouraging. Discouraging to go on and do anything. I feel numb.